I did do my Weight Wellness class and went to the pool, that was the good thing. Really the only good thing. Other than that I have been so damn frustrated with my life today. My messy house. My fat self. My painful head. My utterly psycho brain.
Got into a big thing with Mom... well, no, really with Padre THROUGH Mom because I refused to TALK to Padre anymore about stuff. It was just... ugly. I cried a LOT today. I felt like throwing a full-out temper tantrum like a 3 year old.
I MUST wake up at a decent hour (whether I can fall asleep at one or not. That has to be secondary for now), work on my house, exercise, eat something nutritious, take medicne prescribed to me, and go to church on Sundays even if it means sitting in the foyer on the couch because the benches make my head so much worse. And I need to get my brain untangled so that I don't cry or sleep the majority of the day.
I do not want to be this. I really don't.
|You Are Mostly Secure|
Sometimes I really want to go home.