Thursday, January 25, 2007

I am not a Me Fan

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I did do my Weight Wellness class and went to the pool, that was the good thing. Really the only good thing. Other than that I have been so damn frustrated with my life today. My messy house. My fat self. My painful head. My utterly psycho brain.

Got into a big thing with Mom... well, no, really with Padre THROUGH Mom because I refused to TALK to Padre anymore about stuff. It was just... ugly. I cried a LOT today. I felt like throwing a full-out temper tantrum like a 3 year old.

I MUST wake up at a decent hour (whether I can fall asleep at one or not. That has to be secondary for now), work on my house, exercise, eat something nutritious, take medicne prescribed to me, and go to church on Sundays even if it means sitting in the foyer on the couch because the benches make my head so much worse. And I need to get my brain untangled so that I don't cry or sleep the majority of the day.

I do not want to be this. I really don't.

You're Confident...Sometimes
You can seem confident when the occasion calls for itBut inside you may be experiencing a bit of self doubtA little more inner confidence could take you far...And convince others that you're as confident as you try to seem
You Are Mostly Secure
In general, you feel confident and together.But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure.Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually.So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!






Heavenly Father,
Sometimes I really want to go home.







6 comments:

  1. "I have been so damn frustrated with my life today. My messy house. My fat self. My painful head. My utterly psycho brain."

    I believe you are my twin. :-P I'm sucking it up at being good recently as well.

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  2. if i was in utah i would TOTALLY come by and give you a hug.

    my house is messy. i am fat, and my stomach & back hurt all the time. i feel ya, sister.

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  3. Um so...I don't want you to go home, even though you sometimes feel like you do. I'm selfish...I want you here...and I hope you feel better...

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