Saturday, September 30, 2006

General Crappiness


General Conference (for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints) is today and tomorrow morning. I was happy for it! For one, I have been feeling rather crappish, and I could use some major divine help and closeness to the Lord. For... ummm... 2... it is being broadcast on TV so even when I hurt enough or am dizzy enough that I can't be upright, I don't miss out!

Only, I fell asleep some 5 minutes into the first session and woke up to some radio show about gardening. o_O

And then around the beginning of the second session I got rather sick and ran to the bathroom but bending over the toilet to throw up, but the bending made my brain explode with pain and pass out on my roommate's bathroom floor where I stayed for around half hour and then my mom came and made me go to the stupid ER.


I HATE HOSPITALS. (however the doctor guys (all but this funny hippie nurse guy) were all very nice (and rather cute, truthfully. MmmmHmmm!). I listened to a little more Conference Conference while waiting in a room, but my head was hurting bad enough right then that I don't remember a word, or most of the chat with the doctor.

Long story short (I know. Too late!) I do not have a Sinus Infection. I am still super sick. And the ER wants me to go to a Neurologist! They don't know what's wrong, but he said it ALMOST seems like Cluster Headaches, but while POSSIBLE, mostly afflicts Men, over 40... Of which I am neither.

Anyway, back to Conference... It looks like I WON'T be going with the Fam to the last session. Because, yeah. YEAH. So am rather bummed tonight.

I hate doctors... but I hate FEELING like this even worse.

So maybe we'll see... maybe they can figure out what is wrong with me and FIX it for once! Maybe not, but... PLEASE?! *whimpers*

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Geek Fodder



For the Love of Everything Shiny I wish I was a computer-savvy geek instead of just a nerd. Computer-wise my computer and my Qwest both seem to have "gotten better" by themselves. (Do computers really have sort of white blood cell-bytes?!) I am still going to start ISP shopping, though. But my Palm is making me want to scream.

Somehow, I lost my user name from the Palm, then the driver for it VANISHED today and I can't find it. AAARGH!!! I have been following Knowledge bases, troubleshooting, etc for about 5 hours and as soon as something on it works, some other part disappears. This vanishing act is PISSING ME OFF! The fact is, I have a LOT of information in these files (which luckily MOST of it I was able to export before losing everything) and I have a rather unhealthy dependency to my little Zire 72. I have my whole attempting-to-get-organized life in there with alarms to tell me when to take pills, go to class, write a birthday card, breathe in and breath out.

I want my Palm back! I want it to work and nothing is helping.

And my headache, too... nothing is helping that and now I have to get a stupid Cat-Scan on Monday, probably.

I feel sucky and helpless about the dumbest things and crying all the time.

And I just got asked on a date by a 50 year old guy. Yeah THAT makes me feel good about any chance of ever having a relationship <:OP (preferably with a geek who knows Palm PDAs... MmmmmHmmm!)

Eye Hates You


...after 1 am... I should try to sleep, but I have little hope for it. Not just the typical insomnia, but because this blasted headache makes me feel like my eyes will drop out of my head.

I haven't been to class this week, and tomorrow is my last chance to do so, but don't know if I'll be able to drive there, much less sit through class cognizant .

For now the Depression, ADHD, etcetera etcetera... will have to wait on fixing until my brain, eyes, and equilibrium can manage to stay inside my skull for a change.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Girthy Girl on the Move... on the MOVE

Combining my Blogs... PHASE 2...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Girthy Girl on the Move (moving my Weight Loss/Health Blog here)


Starting Line


Every story has to have a Once Upon a Time... every race, a starting line. So this is mine.

Ready, set, GO!


Age: 27
Height: 5 feet 3 and a half inches (we'll call it 5'4")
Weight today: 225.6
BMI: 39.9
Medications:
Diabetes: Glucophage/Metformin, Glucotrol/Glipazide
Depression: Celexa/Citrolopram
Cholesterol: Vytorin (sucks because it means I can't drink Black Cherry Fresca anymore and I LOVE that stuff!!!)
Muscle Spasms: Quinine
Insomnia: Ambien, Tylenol PM
Exercise Program: Water Aerobics(3+ days/week at Wellness Center), Talk-Walking(4 days/week in neighborhood)
Weaknesses: Popcorn, Depression, Chocolate, Laziness, Healing from Surgery, Internet Addiction

The Big Picture:
To be healthy. Not counting on THIN, just healthier. Ideally, 150 lbs. even though BMI says 130. The ability to breath normal when I run upstairs for the phone. To feel better about myself and lessen dose of Celexa. To control my diabetes without, or with significantly less, medications. To wear a cute shirt from a web comic and not pay 2 bucks extra for a bigger size, just to have it too snug after all. To sleep from around midnight till 7, rather than from 5 am till 3 pm. To not cringe when I see a picture of myself.

Goals (SMART ones! Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic, Timely) Leading to the Big Picture :
Short Term:
1. Get a pill organizer and take meds on time.
2. Add fiber powder to most foods.
3. Work out Carb Allowance with Dietition.
4. Replace or mend swimsuit for water aerobics.
Many MANY more to come...
Longer Term:
1. Lose 75 lbs by next April
2. To have blood glucose levels in the normal range more days than it is not
More to come here as well.


Thursday, August 17, 2006

A Day in Park City



Family mini-vacations are good for SOMETHING. While I did eat out (Chicken Nugget kids meal at Wendy's), the shopping, sight seeing, etc. logged me 4,900 steps on my pedometer! YAY ME!

However, it wasn't all rosy. While my slender-ish sybs went to Old Navy and such I went to Dress Barn, because they DO have clothes in my size...

Or rather, USED to. I tried on a rather cute skirt that was size 24 (Yay!) and it didn't even CLOSE to fit (BLEH.). I have plenty of pants that are 24 and roomie. So I am sure the cut had something to do with it. But still a major bummer.



I hate my Guts

BLEH. NOT feeling good at all and it's probably my own fault. Yesterday (Friday) was prettty good. I was careful with carbs and took 3,950 steps. But today I went to 2 parties. A bridal shower and a movie party and ate treats at BOTH. I just got home and am not feeling good. I think I may be sick for another reason as well, but my blood sugar is probably not helping. 355. GRAND. Stupid choices made tonight. Stupid.


Sunday, August 20, 2006

Quizzes of Little Consequence

Your Body Image is 56% Unhealthy, 44% Healthy

You may think you have a normal body image, but you definitely don't.
While you may not have a serious problem, you obsess over your looks way too much.


The problem with this quiz is they don't know HOW overweight I am.

You May Be a Bit Borderline...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!
When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...
And when you're down, your whole world is crashing
Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!


Hmmm... well, it was discussed, yes.

You Will Die at Age 76

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well.


You Have Low Self Esteem 68% of the Time

You tend to blame yourself when things go wrong, regardless of whether it's your fault or not.
You're anxious to please others and rely too much on their opinions. Learn to please yourself first, and your confidence will soar.


What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front.
Shy and private, you yearn for security.
You take relationships slowly.
You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.
What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?


You Should Weigh 151

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.
If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!


HA!


I REALLY REALLY wish I was joking... but instead I am BAWLING

Today was a bad one, health-wise. I've seen 3 different doctors in the past 2 days.

Basically, it went like this...

Me: Well, I am still having stomach issues and pain
Like a Surgeon: Hmmm... that's weird.
Me: Weird?
Like a Surgeon: Yeah, weird. Take these meds. Have a Nice Day!

ER Molestor Lady: Relax
Me: This is me relaxed.
ER Molestor Lady: Relax, Damn it!
Me: I CAN'T.
[PAIN MASSIVE MASSIVE PAIN]
ER Molestor Lady: I bearly touched you.
Me: I'll have to take your word for it.
ER Molestor Lady: You have a yeast infection... and a UTI... and a tiny vagina. You are the biggest virgin I have ever seen. You need to put things in there with KY Jelly and stretch it.
Me: *#T$@#)%@$% LIKE WHAT? a Dildo?!
My MOTHER: Pop bottles? Different Vegitables. Zuchinni! Baby zuchinni.
Me: o_O (Whiskey Tango Foxtrot?!)
My MOTHER: But do not let anything get stuck. Because that would be hard to explain to the ER.
ER Molestor Lady: Take these pills. Get stretched. You are a big whiney baby and I hardly touched you.

Me: I don't sleep anymore.
Annoyed General Practitioner: [scribble scribble]
Me: I need to have a job and go to school.
Annoyed General Practitioner: [scribble scribble]
Me: I don't drink caffiene.
Annoyed General Practitioner: [scribble scribble]
Me:
I don't nap.
Annoyed General Practitioner: [scribble scribble]
Me:
Please help me.
Annoyed General Practitioner: [scribble scribble]
Me: Also, I am still having stomach issues and pain. Is that weird?
Annoyed General Practitioner: [scribble scribble]
Me:
I don't keep a TV in my room
Annoyed General Practitioner: [scribble scribble]
Me:
PLEASE HELP ME! Please? I am really really tired.
Annoyed General Practitioner: Take these meds. Go to psycho therapy. Take more meds. It's not weird. Can take 6 months to a year.
Me: A year?
Annoyed General Practitioner: Have a Nice Day!



I did go to water aerobics... then almost blacked out in the locker room.

I did walk (1,077 steps)... but ended up crying from pain and making the dogs go home early (I am tending Trinket and Shasta this week).

I was depressed and therefore ate Panda Express with my family... checked my sugar a few minuets ago and I am at 400.

Okay because I am SEVERLY needing positives...

* Maybe these new meds will help!

* SUPPORT is a huge part of succsessfully losing weight (and I don't mean bras). 4 of us have decided to join together in a little Blog Party of sorts called Losing It! We are all contributing to it. Unfortunatley because THIS is beta and that one's not they are not CONNECTED... but they are. So yeah, Losing It (in a good way).

* Aaaaaaaaannndd.... Good night.


Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Egg Fu Jungian Theory

I made a really good, and rather low carb breakfast burrito thingy today! I am calling it sort of Egg Fu Yung in a tortilla. Did you know they have Cheese and Chives Egg Beaters? YEAH, and they are good! AAAAND...


Serving Size 1/4 cup (61g)
Amount Per Serving

Calories 35

Calories From Fat 10
% Daily Value *
Total Fat 1g 1%
Saturated Fat 0.5g 3%

Cholesterol less than 5mg

1%

Sodium 210mg

9%

Total Carbohydrate 1g

0%
Dietary Fiber 0g
Sugars 0g

Protein 6g

10%



And then I put, like bean sprouts and stuff in it and wrapped it in a yummy cook your own tortilla.

I also got 1,478 steps.

Emotionally, I am NOT doing so spectacular. But hey... egg beaters. Yeah.


Thursday, August 24, 2006

Would you like some cheese with that... Mac?



I already posted this in Losing It, but tough! I am posting here as well.

I didn't eat well today. I blame the water aerobics! When I was little my sister and I would swim all day in St. George till we were too hungry to stand it and would drag our dripping selves home. We then would make Mac & Cheese and watch cartoons. (we didn't have cable at home, and so having Nickelodeon and stuff... it was, like a freakin EVENT to watch Muppet Babies... OH! And Mystery Science Theater on the Comedy Channel! Because, yeah, I was a cool nerd even back then. Hee hee!) And so, after my first day back of classes, I really needed to swim. I was hurting from the stairs, really tired and was anxious to get in the water.

So I went to my new pool (love it there) and swam and swam and swam, a bit too long and my sugar level dropped really low. And stupidly I had nothing with me and then I had an unconrollable craving for Macaroni. I went to the store for milk to make it, but ended up with a rather big package of microwave type from Stouffers or something because, well, I wanted it right then. LOTS of fat, LOTS of Carbs, and actually not very good tasting.

Dang it, if I am going to cheat it better at least TASTE worth it!


Thursday, August 31, 2006

2/3

Walked a lot (3,311 steps.)

Did Water Aerobics (for an hour.)

Came home sore, exhausted and starving and went and bought Cafe Rio.

2 out of 3's not TOO bad... right?


Thursday, September 21, 2006

Trying to climb back on the wagon

I am getting a *little* healthier. I am not really losing WEIGHT, per say... but I think my pants are a bit looser than usual. Yay! I wish it was more VISIBLE... and quick... and measurable. But I need to take any successes I can get!

So, TODAY...

Food: Not so healthy. I was out and ordered a chicken nugget kids meal from Wendy's. Now, THAT is bad enough, but they messed up my order... I ordered Mandarin oranges instead of fries, but I got fries.... which naturally I felt it necessary to EAT. *SIGH.* MR. WILL POWER IS NOT MY FRIEND. (I also asked for a toddler toy because my babies love some of them... and they gave me some basket ball thing that is of no good to any child... that is under 5 inches tall, that is)

Activity: Better. I recently broke my toe, and it is amazing how much one little digit can hurt! So I am taking the exercise SLOOOOW. However, I DID walk (3,097 steps. Not my highest, but respectable) and I also did water aerobics for 45 minutes. So, bad food choices... but pretty good exercise.




P.S. As for other aspects of my health, well, the mental stuff... I am not really going to get into here. But while I am still not doing well, I am getting a referral (hopefully tomorrow) for a new psychiatrist. So may be can help things get better.


Saturday, September 23, 2006

All-You-Should-Not-Eat French Toast!


I had a class group this morning at Magelby's for Breakfast. HOLY YUMMY...

But I earned myself a blood glucose level of over 450, and feel like crap on toast.










And as for today, (Wednesday, 27 September 2006) still really sick and I am scared I will NEVER feel better. My headache did not stop all day and I was super dizzy. The closest I got to exercising was doing laundry.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

FLY me to the Moon


So I have been thinking, why do I have so many blogs? I mean really, the new Blogger Blogs has topics, why not combine a few? Okay, so anybody who read me might have to skim topics of un-interest, but maybe it will simplify my life a LITTLE. And therefore, I suppose this is my way of admitting my membership in a "cult" called FlyLady to help me with my newest diagnosis of ADHD. Blergh.

Yes, I give you permission to mock ME, tomboy/slob/domestically challenged Kipluck for talking about shiny sinks and housework. It is hard for me... a major stress, but inevitably good for me.... probably. But yeah, here is my FlyBaby blog all sucked into Skittles Deferred:

a Fly[or die trying]Baby is born!

Monday, September 4th, 2006 "FlyBaby... So basically I'm a MAGGOT?!"


"You are not behind! I don't want you to try to catch up. Just jump in where we are."
~FlyLady
For the past couple weeks every other sentence out of my mother's mouth has started with "FlyLady says..." I would be annoyed but she looked so HAPPY about it all. I am not very good at this kind of thing... which is why I NEED this kind of thing! A lot.

That whole
CHAOS (Can't Have Any One Over Syndrome) thing is SO me!!! And it is keeping me from FLYing (Finally Loving Yourself).

And there are a gazillion acronyms in the program. STHU, people! I need to think in full-sentences sometime!


Monday, September 25, 2006

What the Dell?!


I hate computers.
HATE THEM!!!!!!!!!!! Especially this week...

A few times a day and ALL night my internet would die. My modem was fine, my signal was strong (I have wireless), and I would follow their stupid "Qwest Quick Care" steps and it tells me it is the network, but to disable/re-enable something, which didn't work. Then to reboot the computer which not only didn't work, but CRASHES.

It tells me to open with "last good configuration" which I do, then the screen turns black and says to scan for viruses (done), check drivers (done), and run CHKDSK /F which takes forever and THEN does nothing.

This happens over and OVER AND OVER!!!

So, I don't know if I just hate Qwest... or hate Dell as well.

OH and P.S. I "upgraded" this here account and lost my extensive list of links.

I HATE IT ALL!!!!!!!!! I don't know how to fix it. And I feel sick as can be anyway. *I* am the one with the Virus, not my laptop. Stupid flu-ish thing. And stupid computers. And stupid EVERYTHING... EVERYTHING!!!
*

Saturday, September 23, 2006

What a Doll


So, BestSariah inspired me. And I went and made me a doll of me. I am so much cuter as a doll! But also, I picked the background because I felt like giving people seizures.... but unfortunately when you SAVE the picture it no longer spasmodically flashes so delightfully epileptic!!! Bummer.

Hey, do me a favor... blink really fast when you look at me...

Friday, September 22, 2006

Cookies, Turtles, and ADD


The Roomie made COOKIES!

Really yummy TURTLE cookies!


(Turtle = nuts, caramel, etc. Not Turtle = Captain Michaelangelo Tortuga) I want MORE...

Dumb Crystal Light... you're not cookies!

Anyway, she and I are just chilling here at home and watching some silly old Doris Day movie, called Glass Bottom Boat that is cracking us up.

But previous to this fun stuff, well, it's been quite the TRYING day. I went to the doctor and ended up being there for FOREVER! I had to take a bunch of psychological tests. My mom had to take some, too, you know... about me. I had to answer all these questions, twice... once about me now, and once about me as a 13 year old. (probably looked much worse than things WERE as a kid as 13 was a REALLY bad year for me.) But as for the now stuff... yeah. I hate answering that stuff. I cried a lot. It was embarrassing. Especially the whole, you know, thoughts about death thing.



Oddly, besides the referral, I also got some totally different meds to try... because they are looking more at ADHD (but it isn't Ritalin) or possibly Bi-Polar than my regular depression and such. Neither new diagnoses would surprise me, really. The fact is, whatever is wrong with me is not being treated right yet. And so I am willing to try whatever the doctor wants. Probably a combination of things.

But I admit I am really scared to change meds in general. I am scared that changing things might just make things worse... and the way they are now, well, worse is dangerous, you know?

On the other hand, WITH CHANGE THERE IS HOPE... right?

I did go to water aerobics, worked a lot on crunches. Talked to mom a lot about, well, the tests and stuff. Then we went to Shops at Riverwoods to bring my little bro his forgotten wallet. Then out to Chinese which I am paying for now (BLEH...) but it was yummy. And now here I am at home. My roommate has gone to bed now. The movie is over and I am watching some brainless sitcom with the critters (just the gliders and turtle), and thinking about stuff. Stuff I shouldn't because I will just end up sad, but yeah. So am going to stop writing about it, mess around on Gaia a bit, feed the babies, and pretend to sleep so that I have a CHANCE of waking up in time to meet with my ASL class group to film a group test.
BLEH BLEH BLEH!!!!

Ignore the date, this was Thursday...

[Stupid Qwest. I tried for forever to post this last night. I may switch providers soon... before I end up throwing the computer out a window.]


I don't know where to start. Yesterday was fun, well, part of it. Coats came up! I haven't seen that chick in FOREVER. In fact, while we have chatted on the phone and emailed since, I don't think we have SEEN each other since before she joined the Army! We went to Macaroni Grill (had a fantastic Shrimp Portafino) and talked about everything! She broke up with Bill, by the way... not all that surprising... but I was entertained to hear she now is writing a net boy named Larry who she calls her "Imaginary Friend" and he is CALLING her for the first time, well, tonight. So we ate, talked, went shopping... very girly, but fun because it was, well, US!

The Fringe Will Rear Again!!!!

However, though mental illness is something we DEFINITELY have in common, we did NOT talk about my more so lately Depression. I didn't actually tell her about it... because I think I kind of, umm, scared some people. And they didn't really know it all. Because I haven't TOLD anyone everything, not even here. Not out of fear of scaring them... just because, I don't know. Sometimes saying/typing stuff makes it... real. But that leads me to my next thing (besides Coats)...

Tomorrow, I am probably going to the doctor to get a referral to a new psychiatrist... and a psychologist... especially since the psychiatrist has a FOUR MONTH waiting list. I loooove my insurance I got from MyFamily... for everything except MENTAL wellness because they SUCK with that and only allow, like ONE psychiatrist and 3 psychologists. And I can't afford to go with out the insurance. Therefore, yeah. 4 Months. And if the last month was any indication of the way THOSE 4 will be, yeah I better talk to SOMEONE a lot sooner than that. ASAP, really...

On happier matters, I went to my sister's play tonight. HORRIBLY cheesy... but I laughed and Rinny did really good... as was Kevin Goertsen. The guy is TALENTED. (He semi-dated Rinny... before he got married, obviously. Also, ummm (okay, Awkward...) he was really good friends with PoetryBoy, my... well I suppose he was my boyfriend... first/last/only kiss).

OH and in the lobby, this is so random. GUESS WHO I MET? Natalie, the short girl with the head band and glasses... in THIS!!!--->



Wednesday, September 20, 2006

"Girl, you have 50,000 coaches..."

"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our greatest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, fabulous, gorgeous, talented? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. You're playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that's within us. It's not just in some of us. It's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we automatically give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence automatically liberates others."

--Marianne Williamson


I am watching Akeelah and the Bee right now and it is very good! However, it IS 2 am and I should be asleep, especially as tomorrow my friend Coats is coming to Provo for lunch and it would be good if I could drag my but out of bed before the crack of NOON.

This movie, though, it makes me want to be smart, you know? These kids are spelling these words that I can not even imagine spelling (with out Firefox's fantastic spell check of any field... YAY MOZILLA!). Other things, too... I want to... to achieve. I want to do something awesome with my life. However, I am not certain I AGREE with Mandela. I think I am pretty afraid I will fail... not be too powerful...

I am not worried about THAT at all. Lately I have been feeling down right powerless.

Weak.

Alone.

Terrified of my own failure.

And I wish I was healthy enough to jump rope.

ANYWAY, you will notice I am not speaking like a pirate because it is not Tuesday anymore. Also, I am not in the mood. I feel sad and icky about myself... despite the fact that I have amazing friends and family arguing that to the contrary. I love my friends... my mom... my sugar gliders (okay, so the suggies do not actually argue with me. They just make me giggle and give me someone else to focus on caring for. I need that, too.). I guess we all sort of do. Something to take us out of ourselves, you know?

Anyway, it's just... frustrating. Wanting to achieve. To succeed. To become something... to become someone worth being. To ME. Worth being to me. I know, at least deep inside, I am a person worth being to God. But he is perfect. He loves all his children. But I am NOT perfect. I don't love everyone. Least of all, right now, Me. I know I am wrong. I know my thinking and perception is skewed. I know the mental illness does that. I know that what *I* see in the mirror isn't real life. I know it...

but I don't BELIEVE it somehow. I need to learn how. But I don't know if I ever will.

But I hope I can.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Do Ye Know What Day it Be?

ARRRRGH! Good night, me hearties. 'Tis time to pretend to sleep.

I would be typing more all pirate-like but I be having school in the wee hours tomorrow. I would rather walk the plank, but that's not my fate today. Argh!

Me Hearty!

Avast!

Blow me down!

Swab the deck!

Savvy!

Watch Peter Pan!

Arrrgh!

Yarrr!

Blarr!

Bizzarrrrre!

Walk the plank!

Ummm... Avast some more!

Goodnight.






Monday, September 18, 2006

Might as Well


A few random thoughts...

My brain is jumbled today, so that works. (the following is NOT in order)

1.) I went to FHE! Can you believe it? I pretended to be social and brave and happy and actually went to Family Home Evening with my roomie and our church "family." It was fun. We had a lesson about looking for the positive or something and then had an egg drop. You know those contests you have in Junior High science class where you have to protect an egg by building some thingy and dropping it off the roof? Yeah. We named our egg George and we did, in fact, succeed. Yay! We won a candy bar.



B.) I think I broke my pinky toe. How can such a teensy tiny digit hurt EVERYTHING so very much?! It's crazy! When I went to the pool I thought I was going to cry just barely kicking, the water pushing against my toe.

3.) I chatted with Megs. I cried a ton. Selfishly, this time. Usually I worry about her more than me. Right now I think she may be more stable than I am.

Scary.

D.) Ate cookies at FHE. Blood Sugar is THROUGH THE ROOF. Crap.

5.)

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.


("Resume" - Dorothy Parker)


Purple.) Arrrgh! Happy Talk Like a Pirate Day EVE!

29.) I have very very kind friends.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Go for the Gold!

Because I am feeling too crappy to write for real, ummm... THESE...

You Are 47% Passionate, 53% Compassionate

You possess an ideal balance of passion and compassion.
You definitely can get swept away and lose your head a little.
But you're rarely a fool for love!


Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest:

You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.

At Your Lowest:

You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.

In Love:

You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.

How You're Attractive:

You passion for life makes others passionate about you.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Having Fun?"


Your Political Profile:
Overall: 60% Conservative, 40% Liberal
Social Issues: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal
Personal Responsibility: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Fiscal Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
Ethics: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Defense and Crime: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal

Huh. Figures.

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance.
At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower.
And at other times, you are wise like an iris.
And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.


Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.
You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy
Music
Theology
Art
History
Foreign language
At least Blogthings thinks I can succeed at this.

You Should Rule Jupiter

Huge and hot, Jupiter is a quickly turning planet with short days and intense gravity.

You are perfect to rule Jupiter, because you are both dominant and kind.
You have great strength and confidence, but you never abuse your power.

You are always right. Even if you make mistakes, you compensate for them... before anyone knows it.
Headstrong and ambitious, you always have a goal in mind. You are optimistic and believe thing things will always work out.


You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group...
You're always up for a good time or conversation
And you stick with your friends no matter what
You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!
True. Very true.

Your Life Is Worth...

$787,500
So... any takers?

You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One!

Generally, you're very happy being a single woman.
And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem.
Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy.
You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man!
If you say so...