"She pooped! She pooped in my pocket!"

Low-lights of the day:

• *Nobody* coming to my Mountain West Pocket Critters Conference Pumpkin Palooza
• Headache
• Headache
• Headache
• Headache
• Backache
• Boob aches
• Leg aches
• arm aches
• Fibromyalgia

Highlights of the day:

• Baby Fable pooping in Rinny's pocket
• Watching Legally Blonde and Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian with Mom and Rinny
• *Nobody* coming to my Mountain West Pocket Critters Conference Pumpkin Palooza when I felt like crap anyway.

Shell Shock

What a week.

First of all, I tested, interviewed, and got hired at another job. Yay.
It is outbound, calling people for surveys... basically annoying the general populous... and yes, it is going to be boring.

So why accept it?
Because it starts a buck more an hour than TGP and can go up to 4 bucks more.
Because it is local and so much less travel.
But MOSTLY because it is WORK WHEN YOU WANT and that means I can STILL work at Thanksgiving Point and just Fill In the OTHER days with PGM! YAY!

It's a dang good thing I took the typing tests THAT day, though, because the next day at work (teaching Pumpkin carving at Pumpkin Palooza!) I broke my left ring finger in a folding chair. I can still type (luckily I type bad... not "home row") but it is a lot slower because when I accidentally use the broken tip I scream. It is just the bone ABOVE the tip top joint (the distal phalanx)... so I can move it and don't have a splint because that doesn't even help. All I got for it is pain pills. DUMB.

But it is amazing how much something so LITTLE can hurt.

Yes, I am SO jinxed.

I went to a few doctors this week... my Neurologist and Doogie my OBGYN and my awesome foot doctor. I have even MORE pills to take. More dumb medical mysteries.

On the other hand, I am having a pretty good time trying to get this Tortoise to thrive. Poor little dude. I named him Bratanik (means boy cousin). But I have been calling him Little Brudder... even though he does have all his limbs. I am falling for him. I knew it would happen. Even a dusty old tortoise can steal your heart if you let it in your house. SIGH.

He wasn't eating. He FINALLY is, but refuses to eat from a dish. I a still going to get him checked out soon as I get a pay check and find the most reasonably priced herp vet. He isn't well, but I would like to be sure he isn't, like, riddled with parasites or anything.

Bratanik isn't as colorful as his "Brother" Tortuga nor is he as friendly... but hopefully he will get used to us.There are humans, dogs, birds... and we have no idea what his life was like before. In fact there is a HUGE portion of Russian Tortioses in the opet trade that were WILD caught, poor things. So who knows.

But we will do our best to get him well AND win him over!

Any Similarities to Rainbow Brite is Purely Coincidental

Anybody want some Smarties? Because what is up with the Trick-or-Treaters?! Is it too cold? Are kid's bigger wusses this year? Or is it because we are the ONLY house with so much as a PUMPKIN out in our complex even though we are right by a park and a school?! SIGH. So sad. I have SO MUCH CANDY HERE! We had like 15 kids ALL NIGHT and I was so excited for ANY Halloweentivity. SIGH.

Today I went to the nuerologist and got 3 injections at the base of my skull that felt like FIRE. They did help ( though not get RID of) the headache... but only for awhile. So I was really feeling in the need for some Halloweeny fun even though I had to lay down most of tonight. So I hurried home after the doctor, dressed up, and awaited Trick-or-Treaters. SIGH. At least my house was cute... and *I* was a cute-ish witch. Okay, not THAT cute. I still am shaped like me. And Okay, so someone thought I was trying to be Rainbow Brite in a witch hat. That was not intentional. But it may have been subliminal, I mean, being a child of the 80's and all.

I just wasn't thinking when I decided to randomly put on make up! Only I didn't really HAVE anything but some black eyeliner that I never wear and some lipstick that I never wear. And apparently the only thing my needled brain thought to do with that was sort of an ugly shooting star. In black. And red. Like a Goth Rainbow Brite. SIGH. But in the picture I am trying to show the OTHER side!

Anyway, that was Halloween. OH and I forgot to show you, my PUMPKIN! So here THAT is, Anyway, it has been a pretty long day with the injections and very very LONGNESS of the appointment and the fact that now that the temporary nerve blocker has worn off I am just as bad or worse and I feel like crap and missed going to either of 2 awesome parties I was invited to because of feeling like crap. Fresno was maybe going to be online after playing in Disneyland tonight and we were going to try to chat, but it doesn't look like he was able to weasel away the computer from his roomies. Bummer. And so yeah. I am here. And eating soup. And sad. But I could be much be worse...

So that should be counted as a victory! And things will inch along getting better... tomorrow I will be back at physical therapy again... and taking regular pills... SIGH. Eventually maybe my dumb head will be normal.

SIGH.

I got a whole lot of Smarties left over if any one wants some. Can I go home? To, like, 15 years ago maybe?

OH, and for those of you know more of the medical stuff, I DO have better news. I also got other tests back. I have NO clots. The milky lesions on my brain are caused BY my headaches and diabetes NOT the other way around. Also, I DO have Sleep Apnea but it is Mild! That means for NOW I don't have to have a breathing machine! YAY! And it may improve as I lose weight! So that would be good.

"I'm Sad that I'm Flying."

Monster House is weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeird. Good and funny and interesting but really strange. Rinny's NOT a fan. I liked it though.

Tonight I carved pumpkins with my sister. Mine was white (honestly, all white, naturally! Rinny works at TGP and brought us an assortment of colors and shapes. Weird.) and so I carved it like Strong Sad's head. Hee hee!

I didn't go to church today... not even though I did wake up in time. My head was just too bad. I felt extra guilty after though. When I last spoke with the Bishopric I said I would accept a calling in the church, even though I couldn't come even all the time. Compassionate Service. I don't even know what I do. But I was sustained in sacrament meeting today, and I wasn't even there. SIGH. But I have physical therapy tomorrow... and that is what the Neurologist feels will make the most difference. I want to do this RIGHT.

Depression is not going so great either, but I am not going to deal with the medication side of it until I get THIS stuff... all this crap that can cause very SITUATIONAL Depression... figured out. I mean really, I need to make life happy before I can expect my brain to ACCEPT happy, you know? Trying to figure this all out right.

Speaking of, I really should take my load of pills now and try to sleep.

"Isn't it weird when you're not friends with your friends anymore? I mean, Michele and I just fell out of touch about two hours ago."

Yesterday I thought I would never get to LEAVE the physical therapist. It was super busy getting IN for one thing. But with everything, I was there about 3 HOURS and I hurt SO BAD. See, apparently, a big part of my headache is I have occipital neuralgia which is really just inflammation of that nerve... but instead I have a KNOT on it, Yeah a knot on my occipital (nerve? muscle?). Like a physical knot. Not shocking, I suppose, as I get those on my arm and legs. Knots so bad you can SEE them as big sticky-out bumps through my skin. So as well as Physical Therapy, we are looking into finding some sort of orthopedic specialist for me. But anyway, I had to be in TRACTION to see if that might help since the PT has not been able to work it out yet. It HURT and made me feel quite sick. Still does. BLEH.

I was (and still am) hopeful...

but inpatient. I am TIRED of hurting and feeling sick and dizzy all the time!

Right now though, I am giggling over one of my favorite SILLY movies. Romy and Michele's High School Reunion! It is one of those Guilty Pleasure Movies. Hmmm...

Kipluck's Guilty Pleasure Movies of the Week
Romy and Michele's High School Reunion
Josie and the Pussy Cats
George of the Jungle
Superstar

There are probably more... some guiltier... but these are what I think of.

Last night I spent the evening with my family. It wasn't exactly a PARTY but it was CLOSE. I mean, my little sister, Rinny, and I giggled and watched movies. I just spent most of the time laying on their couch under the influence of Robaxin (a muscle relaxant). We watched The Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown (and THEN this one which she got mad at me for (warning, it is not rated G) but still cracked me up---->



Thank you YouTube for bringing me the warped joy of Robot Chicken!) and Thriller and then Wait Until Dark. My sis and I are very VERY different people. Sometimes it is just fun to see we CAN still have fun together.

As for the rest of my fam, Spencer is LOVING BYU. I am pretty sure with all the fun he is having with roomies and girls he can NOT be doing well, grade-wise. But hey, I'm his sister, not his mom, so, whatever. He is loving it. He just went to homecoming with this chick he really likes that he calls Carmen SanDiego. And this week he got asked to Preference by some other chick. He is just eating it up. He is also making appointments like mad to get his papers in the works to get out on his LDS mission ASAP. He turns 19 January 13th... he wants to be in the MTC BY then. Weird. I can't believe my baby bro is that OLD... college... roommates... college GIRLS... and serving a full-time mission for the Lord. WACKY!!!

I am so not prepared for this whole people growing up thing! I mean, Me... I am in much the same place. Not all bad. I like where I live. I like my roommate and LOVE the critters that also share my house. I don't really feel like I COULD be a mom or wife right now. And even if the church would allow me to serve another mission (which they have said basically NO WAY JOSE!) I don't know that that is what I would want right now either. I would like to get well enough to at least get a job and school again, but for now... bleh.

But Spencer is getting so big! And I am fairly jealous of Rinn's job.... okay, really jealous. And I keep finding out who of my past crushes are now married (TexasBoy... I am coping now, though. For real. It was just... YEAH. Oh, and mom told me yesterday (but this one made me giggle and sigh, not cry) that DeerBoy was now married. WEIRD!)

Hmmm... I want some Sunshine Toast right now. And orange juice. Only I don't actually have bread.... or orange juice... and I don't think I like the eggs we have at present. Huh. Bummer.

Shasta is so cute. She is feeling especially needy and cuddly right now apparently. She is just snuggled up to me, but it makes it rather awkward because she desperately wants to be ON my lap. Problem is my LAPTOP is on my lap. So she tries to sit on my boobs. Umm, Doggy, you are adorable, but OUCH!? So I keep trying to keep her at my SIDE where when she is snuggled it is just darling (and convenient)... but it only sticks for a few minuets before she tries to climb under the laptop, on the keyboard, or onto my boobs.

SIGH. Puppies... you keep me sane... but sometimes I want to slap you silly!!!

I wanted to go to a party tonight, Trav's... fondue, even. And I am not there. I wish I was. I don't feel so splendid,,, and not social in the least.

However, I am at least happy to say I got an email from my current crush who I will call Fresno for now talking about silly things like what to be for Halloween and Disneyland. That made me feel a little better... and a little more girly. <3 Sigh.

You Aren't Scary, You're Scared

Probably even scared to see how this quiz came out!

How Scary Are You?

You Are Pumpkin

Realistic and practical, you see the world for how it is. You know what it takes to succeed in life... And you're happy to help others reach their goals.

What Color Orange Are You?

"Don't be Scared, we're just from Al Qaeda..."

I am so tired of my head and the health thereof. And I didn't even get to go to the Conference Center after all and felt like crap all day even though my awesome mom came over and brought me Chocolate Chip Pumpkin Cookies (Mmmmmm! :oP Yummy!!!!!). So, is there ANYTHING to make me happy today? YES.

On this Biannual time of togetherness of us Latter-Day Saints, well, I find this even Giggly-er than normal. AWESOME!