You didn't bring me here to drown so why am I 10 feet under and upside down?

Okay, so, where the devil is my Weather Pixie?! What does a pixelated doll need to take a vacation for?! And does the flag mean it is a holiday? Do the little Weather Pixie boy scouts put them out as a way to earn money like in our neighborhood? (and if so, our Real Life scouts didn't put our flag out for Mardi Gras/Shrove Tuesday/Fat Tuesday/National Pancake Day... I think they only do, like, patriotic type holidays... though come to think of it, I don't know if they remembered to put ours out for Presidents Day!) And is that a short pole or is it half-mast? Did... my Pixie DIE? Should I clap to bring her back? (Or is it for Trolley Square?)

Okay, shutting up now about the Weather Pixie, but it weirded me out. And I am going to finish this tomorrow because instead, I am going to go to bed... but maybe write someone first.
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Other than that, well, I had been having an odd day. A normal day in Real Life, but my brain was elsewhere... with elsewhom... only, like, not, and yeah. So I went shopping looking everywhere for the freaky red powder used in Hawai'i because I really needed some with pineapple last night, but couldn't remember the name. So, I called Rinny to see if she remembered the name of it (and yes, I know elsewhom is not a real word.).

Well, when she called me back I don't know HOW but somehow I ended up walking around the grocery store venting to RINNY on the phone! Can we say the blind leading the blind? Anyway, then I came home and should have gone to sleep. But of course, I couldn't sleep. Instead, I wrote to Fresno. Basically I babbled and sorta dumped my mini-existential crisis in his lap. DAMN IT. Sometimes I wish I had a Wayback Machine. But I guess this just goes in the category of "things that will either scare him away or not but either way I will probably babble like this again so he may as well be used to it." STILL, I should really have a venting letter holding period of a day or 2 before sending. Review it first, THEN send.

Plus, it was 4 am when I was HEAD BANGING... and to Kacy Crowley and Rachel Loy?! What was THAT?! Where the heck is my HARD stuff? GEEZ!!! My brain, seriously! GOOD FREAKING GORDON! Anyway, yeah. I need to go to water aerobics.

SIGH.

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
The water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you, everything would be alright
If I see you this darkness will turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cos I'm so used to living under the surface

If I could just see you, everything would be alright
If I see you this darkness will turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
Now everything is alright
Everything's alright.

p.s. on a lighter note, I FINALLY saw Nacho Libre and LOVED IT!!!! It is seriously, HILARIOUS.

p.p.s. The powder is Li Hing Mui Powder