Wednesday, November 14, 2007

reruns

My days are becoming... repetitive. Yesterday I did go to work because we needed to go to a school for a presentation with Journey North and I have been writing our program for that. But I just HURT a lot and spent the rest of the day at Utah Valley Hospital. But other than things I CAN'T get out of, I am not working because I just hurt too much and feel ill all the time. The ulcer is not healing... at least that is probably why I still hurt whenever I eat anything... or don't eat anything for that matter. Tomorrow I meet with a gastroenterologist about that. That crazy appendix/ovary/etc. place in my bottom ride side hurts as does my back like it wants to kill me and they have no idea why so, yes, tomorrow I get another blood test and probably an ultrasound and once again see what the hospital thinks THIS time.

Everyday I just hurt and probably watch Heroes on my mom's online Netflix thing (yay!) and eat nothing good and think too much and get sad.

I miss work on a regular basis.
I miss less pain.
I miss... well, that's unrelated, but yes Thanksgiving is coming and that is when Fresno and I had our first real date and I hate that because he keeps being in my dumb dreams.

My Depression has been pretty bad lately, too, for obvious reasons, so that doesn't help.

Oh, and then today I got in a mini-fight with my Sister/boss because SHE lost a spare key at work and she asked if I knew where it was. I said I was sorry, but no. She was frustrated with the situation and took it out on me. She asked if maybe I took it and maybe I couldn't remember because of pain pills. Geez. Thanks for basically calling me a junky, Rinn.

I am going to feed the sugar babies and go to bed early. I am not actually tired... I am just tired of today being here.

6 comments:

  1. lots and lots of hugs and understanding here Kip! I went through the same thing last week. Three CAT scans and they couldn't see my appendix (CAT scans hurt!!!!!) ever but since the area was suspicious they did surgery anyway. It was fine, but the ovarian cysts never showed up on the scans either. Maybe your guts are moved around like mine are? I hope they find your issues because it's good to know you're not insane. I know you're not!

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  2. I hear ya. I injured my back pretty severly over the summer and am still healing from it. It really does suck. I hope you feel better soon.

    -Wondergirl

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  3. love you!
    that's all I've got... and prayers. things will work out SOMEHOW eventually... maybe we should stop making this an annual event though... ;)

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  4. Hope the blood work and ultrasound went ok. It's not been a good month for many of us.

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  5. Hope the blood work and ultrasound went ok. It's not been a good month for many of us.

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  6. Hope the blood work and ultrasound went ok. It's not been a good month for many of us.

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