Disk Dilemas

If it was a pulled muscle, it would be getting better.  Instead, my upper arm, shoulder blade, and boob are not the only things that hurt so badly. Now it shoots down to my hand.  Dr. School, the orthopedic specialist, thinks it sounds like a ruptured disk.  I had an MRI today and I am going back to him tomorrow to find out what it shows.

I am trying to stay positive, but it just hurts so much, and there doesn't seem to be ANY good outcome.  If it IS a slipped disk that means it can be fixed, even if it means back surgery to remove the disk.  But recovery time may be long enough that I have to leave school for awhile, besides that it already threatens to fail me this quarter if my teacher HerMajesty has her way. 

If it is NOT a disk thing then I have no known hope for recovery and I just can't even face the idea that I might feel like this for a week more, let alone forever.

I can't drive.  I can't pick up my 1 lb purse with my right arm.  I can't close a car door from the inside.  My mom has to brush my hair.  It is so discouraging.  The pain pills don't make me feel much better, though they help a little, but make me nauseous and disconnected.

I don't know what is going to happen this semester, whether I can get an extension of some sort so all the work I did won't be a waste just because I can't do the physical part of the final, or whether this means once again changing my life plan to something more accommodating.

“If you want to make God laugh, tell him about your plans.” - Woody Allen