Sunday, July 13, 2008

Why I should read plots before watching movies that come on TV late at nights

Oh my mental issues. Depression and I are NOT friends... yet we sure hang out a lot together! GRRRR...

Last night I was dumb. I was already super sad and yet I watched this quirky little movie on TV. It's called Loverboy.

It's one of those movies that has weird parents and kids in it where I start out going "Awesome! That is so the kind of kid I am going to have! THAT is probably the kind of mom I am going to be!"

Then it turns to "Crap. That IS the kind of kid I am going to have. And I am definitely going to be that mom."

And then sometimes "Ohnoohnoohno. When I grow up I am going to drown myself and my kid in the bathtub." And end up bawling till my eyes feel like falling out.

Movies like About a Boy and Martian Child. But those end... Happier.

So I went to bed crying. Josie is sick and that sure doesn't help. My poor baby.

5 comments:

  1. maybe you should generally stay away from R movies. :-P Especially ones about crazy people.

    I'm sorry that it upset you. I don't think you would ever become that person.

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  2. Well, that's true. I really need to get more strict with myself. I used to think if it was on TV it was okay, but, really there is some HORRIBLE stuff on TV nowadays. Just horrible.

    Plus, there is stuff I shouldn't watch that ISN'T R. I think the last thing that made me feel that way was an episode of Cold Case. Most of those are fine for me, but this one was, again, about a lady who attempts to kill herself and her baby.

    I just really should not watch TV with those sort of themes...
    or possibley restrict myself to things like Sponge Bob and Between the Lions and the occasional Perry Mason.

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  3. I think people who are aware they have depressive tendencies and FREAK OUT about them and try to change that, take meds, see a therapist, whatever, and do not dwell on the icky thoughts are the ones who *don't* try to hurt themselves or their babies. The ones who aren't disgusted by it are the ones who end up in jail.

    I've been there with the icky thoughts and stuff, but never tried to hurt Munchkin. I fought it off and know I may have to fight again. Seriously. Depression sucks ... and yes, I avoid movies/shows with crazy people in them for that very reason.

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  4. yikes! I have not seen any of those shows but reading it and all the comments I am just steering clear of them. Thanks for the heads up! I don't like shows that make me feel icky!

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  5. yikes! I have not seen any of those shows but reading it and all the comments I am just steering clear of them. Thanks for the heads up! I don't like shows that make me feel icky!

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